.oO(Sometimes I blur the edges.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 21 October 2009: Sorry for the delay. It's been a while, and I apologize. I've tried to write here, but nothing really surfaced - at least not what I wanted to say. The things that I want to say are lies, I think, for the most part. Well, maybe not lies - but definitely not the entire truth. My feelings and perceptions and idea of how things are change by the minute. I don't think 'roller coaster' is a fitting term - perhaps 'tilt-a-whirl' is. So, here are my current truths: Chinese food is always better the next day. I am still in Phoenix, but have a feeling I will be going back down to my sister's house again soon. The paperwork that she mailed me never got here, so I'll have to talk to the post office and/or see if it is returned to her. She is pregnant again - and excited. I'm excited for her. Doug and I are still together, and still doing well. I'm a little bit surprised, and think that he might really be all that he seems. I am happy with this relationship - and it is not as scary as I thought it would be. Next month will be one year that we've been speaking, four months that we've known each other in person, and two months that we've been officially together. I've been dreaming about Amanda a lot lately... and hope that she's okay. I always worry when someone is in my dreams a lot. In all of the dreams, she and I are facing some sort of scary situation (ranging from her 'father' trying to kill us, to ghosts and/or zombies). I miss her. I've been having other random and odd dreams, too. I have a lot of dreaming-in-dreams... you know, when you are dreaming and wake up, but are still dreaming and not really awake? I dreamt that I had given birth, then woke up (in my dream) and was still pregnant. I blame my sister for that one. I miss Lauren. I need to talk to my best friend. I don't like feeling like we're falling out of touch, especially when he and I both have so much going on. We'll talk soon. I can't stay awake to save my life - even with all of the crazy dreams. Time to nap. -Lisa. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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