.oO(Sometimes I blur the edges.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 24 August 2009: Briefly stated. I try not to be so vague, but I have to be. I wonder if I complicate things unintentionally, when I think I am making the right choices. I want to ensure that things go at a moderate pace, so that I do not get swept up in the whirlwind that I have in the past. I do not, however, want to make the wrong choices in current situations based on what would have been right in past situations. Could I be going about this entirely wrong, by doing my best to think through all the possibilities of each course of action? I'm letting things get to me that I know I shouldn't - but when I try to let them mean nothing, I feel like I am being naive and careless. How do I balance? Is it possible to acknowledge certain things, but keep them from being such concerns? I'm not sure how to do that. I wish I could just tuck them away into my back pocket. There are quite a few things I need to find a balance for. There are conversations that I think need to be had, but I'm not sure when. I do not want to make mountains out of mole hills - but I do not want to make mole hills out of mountains, either. I never thought such a simple thing would become so complicated. I'm used to just addressing everything upfront - and if a fallout occurs, I walk away. I'm not used to intentionally trying to analyze my thoughts, words, and actions to avoid a fallout. I'm not used to trying to do things right. I'm a happy girl, Diary. I'm happy with where things are, and where they could go. I'm just confused and a little worried about making the wrong choices. =) - Lisa. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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