.oO(Sometimes I blur the edges.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 04 August 2009: There is more to be said, if mobile updating wasn't so limited. I'm having an incredibly hard time falling asleep. It could be that a twin bed feels small compared to my queen size, and miniscule compared to his california king size bed. It could be because sheets are cold when I'm the only one in them. It could be because the dog (sleeping by the door and breathing heavy) is no suitable substitute for him. It could be because I miss him, in a big way. I feel just as far away now as I did in Tampa. I'm waiting for the sleeping pill to work it's magic on me. I didn't cry when I left Phoenix today to come to my sister's house to wait for my belongings to arrive. I almost cried, but refuse to cry while driving. I could cry now, but I want to be strong. I want to not cry, this time. To cry now would wordlessly say that word that I promised myself I won't say again - at least not yet. So, I will not cry. I will be strong, I will regain control over myself and my emotions. D*land on my phone limits how much I can type. Lame. -Lisa. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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