.oO(Sometimes I blur the edges.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 18 May 2009: Reading old entries... I don't want to forget this again. Shortly after that entry was one reminding me of something Rick's dad told me, that meant a lot to me - and even more so now - so Rick had better tell him that I said thank you. I was so young at nineteen, but reading my old entries shows me that I was old for my age, even after only eight months of military training. I feel the same now, after nearly seven years, as I did then. It's so odd to read those old entries... I hate the entries from just a year or so ago... but those from back then? They still touch me. I wonder what ever happened to Dann Rogers? Not that it would matter much to me now... but he was definitely one of the definitive men in my past. That entire situation meant a lot to me... from the first night meeting him (when he put his grandmother's ring on my finger) to the night we were 'over' (when he kissed another girl in front of me). He was one of the first to teach me life-lessons about men. I remember hiding in his barracks storage closet because his new girlfriend was in his room, but he couldn't let me go yet. I remember still feeling for him then, more with my GirlParts than my heart, by that point. I remember Osan, and what he did there. I never loved him, but I cared for him deeply. And? Randomly, perhaps? There have been quite a few 'close calls' as far as pregnancy goes. Too many for me to think that it was just luck... maybe my organs just don't work right. Maybe I am infertile. I would never get tested on this... as I am too afraid of the results, and don't really need to know... but... it's evident that I have come out safe more times than I think would be possible. Hmm... and now I am getting too far into 2003 to be comfortable. So I will end this now. Sweet dreams. =) -Lisa. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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