.oO(Sometimes I blur the edges.) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 29 April 2009: So. I am making decisions based more on Arizona than I should be, most likely. I am making my plans for my remaining (and undetermined) time in Tampa based on the possibility of what Phoenix has for me. I don't want to disappoint. I care for him. Bullshit. I am too much of a girl for my own well-being. He's most likely going to make me cry, hard. But I suppose that is what I am used to. If it is not one glass of spilled milk, it is another. Maybe I wonder what 'he' will think if things work out for me in Phoenix. Maybe I wonder if he will wish I would have gone there instead. To the forbidden city. His life is taking off, though... so maybe it wouldn't make much difference. Maybe he would like it more if things would work out for me with that man in Phoenix... because then we would both have the ocean and a significant other. It would be more even. Twilight found it's way back into my DVD player tonight. The van scene. I've been dreaming of vampires since I was in highschool... and Bella finds one by accident, and he falls in love with her. Maybe I'm just jealous. Jealousy seems to be more prevalent in my life than I had thought. I've been going to bed super early and waking up super early. I think I might keep that up for a little bit. I wish I would only dream of vampires or sex. Or both. =) That is all. -Lisa. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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